sorry to ivy n yt.....n the rest of those who were at sbw park yesterday....(tag if u guys were here)....was feeling a little down....sitting all alone at one corner of the beach while the rest were all at another side.....thinking bout things tat had a big influence in my life.....lots of things....her, football and most impt, my grandfather....i will always remember how he dote on me so much.....there was tis one time tat i kept pestering my parents to get me a remote control car but they didn't.....i kicked up a big fuss n so my grandad told me to listen to my parents n say i shouldn't keep asking them to buy it for me....but the next week when i went to his place, he gave me a remote control car....my parents even ask y he bought it 4 me....he told them tat it's ok coz he knew i wanted it....he was really good to all his grandchildren.....i think i was his fav.....but he passed away when i was in pri 5....i remember tat week was my bday n he was in the hospital.....he had some internal injuries from a fall n his condition was bad.....on the 14 dec, although i could celebrate my bday with my cousin, i still had to go to the hospital at nite.....it was really a torture coz his condition was getting bad....tat nite it was my aunt who was at the hospital....n so my family went home....but in the early hours of the morning on 15 dec, the phone rang....i picked it up n pass the phone to my dad then went back to slp.....i didn't realize who was it or wat happened until i woke up....my grandad had passed away peacefully.....i was really devastated by the news.....he was the closest person to me other then my parents....me n my cousins would always go over his house during the holidays, he would always bring us out n bought us things....he really was the best grandad....even when we were walking back home, i couldn't help but think bout it all.....i really wish my grandad was still here....then she came to my mind again....wat's wrong with me??? i dun really know y....mayb she is so really impt to me n i fear tat i could lose her.....i really surely need some help.....oh ya....liverpool won...so glad they did.....3rd place is cliched now....happy?? or sad??? think abit of both ba....whatever i seems, it is juz not perfect.....never.....

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